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SOBBBB~~~! KABANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my GODDDDDD the Nariken birthday picture post GAVE ME A HEARTATTACK BEEJEEZZZZZ~!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://blog.waterorion.com

The Nariken Birthday Post: http://blog.waterorion.com/?eid=869111

I am so stalking that blog from now on. :OOOO

And rawr, it’s the gangsta sheep’s blog. *o*~~~ WILL NARIKEN EVER BE MY SHEEP I mean wow…

http://blog.waterorion.com/?month=200711

::jaw drops:: I… wow… I HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT O_O!!!!
>> http://blog.waterorion.com/images/DSCF0742.jpg

Omfg this picture!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
>> http://blog.waterorion.com/images/poster2_outline.jpg

Yamaka pictures! (Let’s forget the one before this or I’ll die.) Him playing guitar mmm~~~
>> http://blog.waterorion.com/?month=200605

It makes me wonder if they’re in love with Yamaka or something. JUST KIDDING! XDDDDD

EEEE Nojiken and Raou “No Signal” CD pictures :3!
>> http://blog.waterorion.com/?month=200603

Typing noises

EHH what is THIS! I… I don’t know what to do with myself…! I mean, actually, I think Kimi would be more interested in this than me. XPPPP

CDJapan: Dears Nihon no Mukashibanashi Ao no Iro

(Pssbt, in case you don’t want to click, the artist says Hoshi Souichirou, Ishida Akira, and Seki Tomokazu. :P)

“Rakuen ~Fanatic~” - Kusao Takeshi

Ahhh… nothing more soothing than my dear’s seiyuu singing this twisted tormented deadly song……

So I had a long day. LONG DAY. I woke up early and was totally zonked out and stretched in a zillion different directions, then work dragged on, especially when the helmet factory guy came argh, and then I had a really nice, uplifting hour in the middle of my day. I went to lunch with Steven so I could give him the dvd to watch so he knows what Chadder goes through. We had Coconut Bay, pretty good stuff, haven’t been there before. And now I remember that I had thai food with Sheridan a few weeks ago, lol, I totally forgot. A teriyaki salmon meal thing was enough for the both of us, and I opted out of drinking the thai tea for once. ::gasp:: Yeah I did, amazing LOL. I picked up the tab, and then went back to work. That dragged. I was finishing up the flyer which seemed to take an eternity to finish, and when I did, it took another eternity to compile and send. ::cringes:: SO MUCH TIME!! NOT ENOUGH RAM FOR THAT!! Then I went off to wait at church for John to show up with the VBS funbook thing so I could plan for the activities at my cinema station, which, by the way, I AM STILL NOT DONE WITH ARGH!!!!!!!!! I ended up helping out with filling balloons with helium and tying them outside to our VBS banner. Yup. Then I went to Fry’s to ask about sound equipment for our youth choir, and alas, expensive and not quite what we’re looking for. I mean, we can handle it, it’s just that it’s not very mobile. ::sighs:: Well whatever. Erm yeah. Finally headed home after perusing for a while and noticed my shirt had stretch marks on it from my *bra*… what on earth… and have been working on VBS stuff since. ::cries:: I have never worked so hard for church *anything*, why am I doing so much right now? It seems like I do more and more as time goes on… But. I guess I’m not complaining, just being whiny, because I want to give back to my church family. They’re such wonderful people and VBS will bring in little kiddies and it’s just one big HAPPY! Now I’m just hoping these activities I planned are fun enough to keep kids entertained. ::sniffles:: Nothing really scientific though, WOE.

All in all, I had a good day, a little long, but good. I’m beginning to think maybe I should start listing at least one thing I’m thankful for everyday, just to keep myself a little more upbeat. All this VBS stuff is sure getting to me. Soooo….

Today, I am thankful for the break I took to have lunch with Steven. Thanks Chadd-I mean Steven! ^_^

Okay. Back to toiling.

Coworkers madtyping IMs ^_^;;;

Is it wrong to be happy? Is it really that wrong? I was so giddy for a while, and then I had a really horrible dream. My friend was mad at me, everything was going wrong, and I was regretting everything I planned and did. ARGH. I don’t know. I also got bad news and bad indications right before going to sleep even, as a matter of fact, I was in bed and falling asleep when it happened and I had to spring out of bed to find out too. >_> And then the bad dreams began. ::weeps:: I don’t know, is this a sign? Does it mean that God doesn’t want me to be happy? ~_~ I guess what I talked about yesterday with Janee just hit me back in the face, because, well, grawr. ARGH I DON’T KNOW!!! I’m just hoping for the best and that my nightmare was just a nightmare and nothing more. I don’t want to screw things up, I don’t want to be upset, can’t things go right for me for once? COME ON, INSPIRE ME! MAKE IT HAPPEN! Let me be normal for once… ._.

BUT! I’m happy right now, and I’m not going to let my damn foresight cloud my happy thoughts. I’m excited! Doo bee doo bee doo~!! ::starts jamming to WaT singing and dancing in her head:: XDDDD THIS IS INSANE!!! I’m happy over such a little thing, is it because I’m losing it or something? Or am I really happy? :D

WHIRRRRRL!!!

I’m so tired today. I slept plenty, but tired… the more I sleep, it seems, the more tired I am? That doesn’t make any sense! Stress…. was stressed out… I don’t like drama… stay away drama, no more drama in my life than I already have, thank you….

Typing noises!

Trying to get back on track with my blogging… Don’t think it’ll be possible, but I’ll start again now anyway.

So yesterday! I slept approximately twelve hours despite waking up multiple times to answer the phone and give it to my mother outside and bathroom breaks. Yup. Twelve hours. *_* Haven’t had that much rest in a while, and boooy did it feel good. Probably because one of the uncles at church helped crack my back and loosened some knots in my muscles? Mmmm yessss I liked. I’m sore from it now, but it did help me rest. When I woke up (finally), I had to go outside to get reception for my cellphone to see if John called, and yeah, so I called back and I went to church to get stuff from them. My aunt and uncle were actually at the church when I got there, so I got in and dug for stuff but couldn’t find anything so I just waited for John instead. He finally arrived and we looked at the chipmunk costume, which actually has a face-open head thing, so UHHH I don’t look like Chadder the Chipmunk! 8D So… we put it on John.. I thought it looked okay but then he decided Steven would look better in it, and after Irene and John’s mom arrived, we paraded over to Steven’s house. :D We now has our mascot, let me present him to you all, CHADDER! 8D I’m so glad he’s such a trooper about it, allowing us to document take pictures of him in costume. :3 Joseph showed me his Bleach wallscroll, and oooh Ukitake right in the middle, SWEET. UKITAKE! ISHIKAWA! ::facefaults:: Uh anyway, after we left, we went to Ranch 99 to pass out more flyers for VBS, pretty good work today too I think. Couldn’t post up our big poster anywhere though, oh well. Then Uncle Pete joined us too and they treated me to Claim Jumper for dinner! *_____* I haven’t been there in, it must have been somewhere between eight to ten years, and boy was it good. Prime rib MMM! Garlic bread! Mash potatoes! Clam chowder! CREME BRULEE! *_* MMMM…. I’m so thankful for such a wonderful church family, and for this weekend!! Ah yeah. Then I went home and babbled on the phone for a bit, Sachi finally called me back. XD I rambled to Saa while she was WoWing, and yeaaaah. XD Mother started yelling about me all over the house but I locked my door and kept rambling. Yeaaaah. Whatever. 8D Not letting her dampen my spirits, PFFT! She said I have to eat dinner at home, or with them, or something tonight, but meh I don’t want to. I’m sick of their guilt trips and saying how they take care of me and how I’m ungrateful or a disappointing daughter, I don’t want to go through all that shit so I can be fed. I don’t care. Until they frickin learn that I don’t want to be talked to like some ingrateful evil daughter, I’m not going to eat with them. I’ll starve if I have to, just leave me alone. >___> Seriously, my relationship with my mother, parents even, has been going in the pits for the longest time, and they didn’t try to improve anything. So I’m not going to waste my energy on this. I’m trying to move out and they keep impeding me, so whatever. I’m living in my house, paying money for it, and that’s it. They’re still my parents, obviously, but I’m avoiding interacting with them as much as possible. I have lots of work cut out for me and enough stress to keep me crazy, don’t make me go insane, please. I’m terrified of stepping into that territory, so LEAVE ME BE. Let me keep my sanity, help me God, if it is Your will. I don’t want to die yet, I feel like I still have things to do, although I don’t know what they are anymore at this point. It’s so daunting to be depressed and realize that there’s no future I’m looking towards anymore. I want my life back!! Give it back!!! Church is helping me feel better, socializing and rediscovering positive emotions, so, Godwilling, I’ll be okay. I have to tell myself that or I’ll fall. I’m going to be okay.

“Kotonoba” - Ishikawa Hideo

Okay, ranting about Tenjou Tenge ahead. I think I’ve held my screams long enough.

I’m going to cry, they’re so beautiful. ToT~!!! Kabane and Shoujou, iiya, Hirohiko and Mitsuiro are just too beautiful together. ;~; I LOVE THEM!!! Who tops who tops! I want Mitsu to top! (Wait, haven’t I heard that one before..) But.. in Chapter 116, Mitsu changed into her “gentle and obedient” self for her Hiro… ::SNIFFLES:: And they kissed, THEY FINALLY KISSED ;~;!!! ::cries:: Ohhhh… it was funny when the monks were all blushing and adverting their eyes except for one who was like ::looks, GASP X_X!!:: XD!!! And then stupid little sister of Hiro shows up and is like “meh my nii-san doesn’t need her, he needs *me*” and annoys Mitsu, who’s watching of course, she’s terrified her love is going to get smashed by stupidass Nagi, no, Kengo. >_______>!!! Damnit, Oh!Great is so good at creating these love scenarios that drive me totally ewok. First ShinxMaya, who are forbidden lovers caught in a rather estrangled love, and now the purity of HiroxMitsu. SO BEAUTIFUL! Based on sunflower seeds? XDDD GAH! I’m so… doki-doki over them. ::sniffles:: Eternal love, da yo! ::blubbers::

Oh and let’s not talk about Bunshichi. I’m going to REALLY CRY if I do. MY MASATAKA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S TOO MUCH!!! STUPID MITSUOMI, JUST GIVE IN ALREADY ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“Happy Time” - Stella Quintet

I had a super wonderful day. I think I can really, really love my church family. Thank you so much, you guys. I owe one happy rest day to all of you, ALL OF YOU! ::sends out hearts to everyone::

Because I have a lot to ramble about, I’m going to cut. Because. There are things that make me a little… giddy. ♥

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“Fuu~Inochi to Hokori” - Ishikawa Hideo, Seki Toshihiko

LUL I was taking pictures of accessories and decided to take this one too…

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