Dementia

Series: Weiß Kreuz
Pairing: Fujimiya Aya & Hidaka Ken

Status: one-shot, finished
Genre: song fic based on "Bosanova, Casanova" sung by Koyasu Takehito & Seki Tomokazu (Weiß Kreuz)

Rating: PG-15
Warnings: yaoi, oral, angst

Notes: This is a song fic, beware if you dislike these! The song "Bosanova, Casanova" absolutely begs for the Ran (Aya) x Ken pairing, and so after many years of... thinking about it, I finally wrote a song fic for it!
The time of this fic takes place at the end of the Yuriko episode (Yuriko is the girl Ken gets involved with and wants him to go to Australia with her) after Weiss goes in and completes the mission, up to the time of the next morning (a tad before you see Yuriko board her flight. Sorry if this is a spoiler, but it is like, episode 5 or something.

Oh yes, the translated lyrics to the song are taken from SaraMichiru here.
Lyric lines are italicized.

I want to place a wound on your skin and bind you with my love


It was another bloody mission. Another mission that satisfied my blood thirst, as much as I don't want to admit it. But it never really ends. One look at you, and my need surges like wildfire again. I accidentally slashed you with my claws when we were fighting back there, really, it was an accident. That's what I love about you, your red, red hair.


A mark that will never disappear


Fine. Lust. That's what I lust about you. Or maybe not. I lust everything about you. From the top of your head to the tip of your katana. Unlike your katana, my claws do much more visible damage. I'd never want to hurt you, but how I long to run my claws across your chest, mark you, show the world that I got through all your barriers. Show everyone that I, Siberian -- no, Hidaka Ken -- could defeat you if I wanted to. If I wanted to severe my ties from you. Start a new life elsewhere. Could I? Stained with the blood of the countless I've slaughtered?


As I part your lips, I want to pour my jealousy into you

with a long, long kiss


I don't know what got ahold of me. Here we are, right after I just smashed my claws into a guy's face, I run to you. Even Youji and Omi are shocked. You let me kiss you, long, hard and deep. You even let me sink my claws into your back as my tongue invades your mouth. How could you stand by and ignore my feelings, letting me carelessly fling myself into the arms of someone else?


Fearing the strength of love,

my body trembles


I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I can't see anything. All I know is I feel this overwhelming passion flowing through my body and pouring into yours. I can't control it anymore. I shudder as you hold me close.


I will not let even one sigh escape... I want to tie you down


The unexpected happened right after completing our mission, right after it, as a matter of fact. There was such a short time span between the moment our target was taken out and the moment I found myself caught in your painful embrace, so much I almost didn't notice your lips on mine. You took my breath away, and I surely will do the same. All these emotions you held back, even moreso than me, I felt pressed against my lips. How long did it take for you to realize? Katana still in hand, I wrap my arms around your waist. I don't want you to leave.


Cling to my lap.


I don't deny that I feel something. I don't deny it all all, that I feel a lot of things. I just can't express them as freely as you can. With my invitation, you detach your claws from my back and nearly tear my coat apart and then my pants. It all happens so fast I don't remember how I crashed on the floor, bare-assed, while still locked in your kiss. I can stil feel your powerful grip on my hips as your weight pressed firmly between my legs.


I suddenly embrace your back with a grip like your heartbeat


Without warning, your face is a mile away from mine, and all I know in that very moment is the excruciating pain that shoots through my body. I had long dropped my katana without knowing when I reach for it instinctively, but instead my gloved hands find your back. I know I shouldn't have pulled you in like I did, but I wanted to feel the pain, over and over again until my heart stops beating.


And I close my tear-filled eyes


Never before have I seen you like this, pounding your frustrations into me. Is that all you're feeling? Your thrusts mount, and I start to cry from the pain. Have you forgotten what love is? But when I looked up, I could see you crying too. I can't bear to see you this way, so I close my eyes.


As we swear eternal fall from virtue


We don't know what became of Youji and Omi, but they made themselves scarce earlier. Here we were, lying amist piles of corpses which we've created in this place, and losing ourselves to our unspoken emotions. Your lips return to mine, and I know that it is not anger you feel. But even if it was anger, I would gladly accept it, knowing there is no one else in the world you would rather desecrate yourself with. The passion ignited between the two of us burns the flesh and the mind, and it will never extinguish. Not as long as we're both alive.


Let’s sink into our fate together


Pain is replaced by pleasure, and I can feel you growing within me. It doesn't take long before you spill everything into me, your pain, your frustration, your passion, and your love. Every last drop of it. And I, all over your black shirt, pouring my sins onto your already troubled chest.


I want to change all your snow-like skin with these hands


As soon as I realize what I've done, I also realize I'm not in this alone. After all the damage I've caused, here you lie in front of me, a part of me very much buried inside of you, and you still look up at me like you understand, or do you? Are you indifferent about me as always? I wished that I could lift the coldness in you and show you how I felt with these hands of mine, but everytime, they seem to cause more destruction than redemption. I withdraw from you and start to cry. What have I done to my love?


A heavy shiver passes through me as he leaves me, and it's replaced by an empty void, a detachment more painful than the entrance from before. Why are you crying again? Ignoring the pain, I sit up so I can touch your face, and ask you why you're crying.


Yes, come here in front of my very eyes


You shy away from me, as if you're afraid of my touch, but I shake my head and beckon you closer. Finally following through, you let my now bare hands wipe the tears from your eyes, the eyes I've looked into so many times and seen nothing but love for everyone, and for me. Maybe I'll kiss you this time.


Yes, hide nothing as you show yourself to me


I can't detect the usual indifference in you as your kiss envelopes me. Are you really Aya, or did an incubus possess you? When you whisper three little words as our lips part, I finally see what you've worked so hard to conceal. You comfort me with the few words you have, telling me to stay. And I accept despite my silence.


Yes, kneel before me as if asking for my love


It didn't matter that we were in a place filled with casualties, I need you to see how I feel before it's too late. Ignoring the man whose life you claimed, I take the seat near his corpse as you drop to your knees and take me into your hot mouth, asking if it's enough. I moan in reply. And all you could do was comply, discarding your gloves and rubbing your strong, warm hands on my aching skin.


Yes, laugh and say that such things like shyness are just curses


Strange, it may seem, but I feel more exposed now than ever. The vibration of a chuckle escapes your throat, and you smile with your eyes on mine. Embarrased as I was, there was no stopping you nor my desire for you to continue.


I want to place a wound on your skin and bind you with my love


Harder and closer you get, faster and quicker I respond. The smell is so strong that it's euphoric as you near your release again. Even without my claws, I can still find a way to mark you, even if it's just for a short while. I hear the sweetest sound of your gasping my name when my nails dig sharply into your pale buttocks, even as you're flooding my mouth.


A mark that will never disappear


I can still feel the intense pain and pleasure, as if the sensations you gave me was meant to haunt me. Even if all that happened last night was your way of saying farewell, I don't think I'll ever forget it.


As I part your lips, I want to pour my jealousy into you


Before you left for the airport, I wanted to hold you one last time. Just one last time, let me kiss you. Maybe I can convince you not to go.


with a long, long kiss


How can I pretend I'm okay with you going away? I would say I'm sorry for acting the way I have been in the past, but I suppose it's too late to say anything now. Last night can't make up for our past history. All I can do is hold this kiss for as long as I can.


With a long, long kiss.


Wait for me, Aya.